Wednesday, October 28, 2009

One step at a time...

The light at the end of this tunnel is barely visible. I thought it would be a simple drawing of dilantin and blood levels are ok, so here you go, work and drive. No. Not that easy. Never been that easy for me.

God, you have purposes, you have reasons. I don't know what they are. I don't know how this will end, or if it ever will. But what I know is that you promised us stability, and I am going to take to mean financially and physically and emotionally. You never break a promise. You never let me down, even if what you want contradicts what I want, You always find some way to show me and to make it real. So, I am trusting You now to not let this destroy what You have built.

I don't know how to fix this God.


  1. I didn't know what to say on reading your post. Then I glanced over to the left at your profile and under Trish it says I'm just a wife mom etc... I wonder if you deleted the 'just' it would make a difference. My mother has banned me from ringing and saying 'its 'just' me'! A small word I know but she says the 'just' indicates a lack of self esteem. I find it irritating that she says but I do 'get it'. I don't know how you cope but you must do better than you think because you do a whole lot more than I. Have you ever attended a pain management course I find myself wondering. I have writers block on my blog at the moment so by way of displacement activity I am here 'willing you on' and hoping that my few words of support in your comment box all the way from the UK bring at least a small smile on an otherwise down day. Take care Trish.

  2. Thanks! I have to say it did bring a small "smile" at least what I could muster half faced with teh face palsy... hahaha. I love to laugh. And fortunately I have fmaily that makes me laugh, if only until it makes my head hurt. It's therapeutic. I have not seen the pain doc. I need to, but have been very distracted with the rest of life... I appreciate your words all the way form the UK!